Keep on keepin' on

I've had better weeks, obviously. I'm still processing my grief. My husband has been fantastic, even brought me home a small bouquet of flowers last night. (And this is just one of the many reasons he's dubbed, "The Best Husband in the World.")

Every time I start to think about my grandmother I want to cry, and I'm just not ready to deal with it all yet. The Boo took the news of her death hard, obviously, but he's dealing with it as well as any 12 year-old can. I'm just glad he was able to have such a great relationship with her and that up until the very end, she was still sharp as a tack and we got to visit with her the Monday before, so Boo has good memories.

I'm finally trying to work again. I actually got off my ass and put out some queries on a manuscript today, one of which was promptly replied to an hour later with the infamous, "Thank you for thinking about us but..." form letter all agents seem to use. I need to work. If I'm not working, it leaves me time to think, which is dangerous. Haha.

I've been very fortunate in my life that while I have had relatives die, either I wasn't close ot them or it happened when I was so young that I was able to rebound from it much easier. My mom's dealing with it probably better than I am. And my grandfather now is in the "clean house" mode, wanting my mom and me to come over and help go through things. But WE'RE not ready to do that, so we asked him to give us a week or so to work ourselves up to it. He misses her so much, but he's always been a strong man and I think he's coping as well as he can cope. I've only seen him cry three times in my life, and they've all been in the past few months about my grandmother. 

I've already given the order to my dh that he's not allowed to die before me. But considering he's 21 years older than me, I have a feeling that's unrealistic. (Yes, tongue was planted firmly in cheek.)

So I'm off to go bury my head in the sand a while longer, working on a manuscript that isn't finished but I want to start querying. A "reporter" mystery set here in Florida about a crooked developer and city official on the take. (Yes, it IS fiction. Duh. *LOL*)  At least it gets me out of reality for a while without the use of medication. *LOL*