Found Purpose Again

Hey Everyone!

I would just like to share with you that a few months ago, I was seriously angry, frustrated and depressed.  I had been suffering in the pain of FMS for almost 5 years, with no relief, and having lost my ability to work, I felt that I had also lost my purpose in life. 

I have a habit of praying to the angels and requesting what I need for my life at that time.  I sent up a prayer to help me find a purpose in life again, and to look forward to getting up in the morning again.  I find it so amazing how this works, and learning that I've had to be patient with this process...I left it in their capable hands. 

This month has found me with my spirits uplifted from friends (new and old) who have been helping me with rides to get things done and inviting me over for social contact.  One of my girlfriends and I celebrated Christmas in February, as we had not been able to get together to exchange Christmas gifts, and that was sooo fun!  I stayed overnight and was able to support her through a panic attack that she had while I was there.  God sure works in amazing ways!

I also have another girlfriend who doesn't live in my city anymore, but her son does.  She has had a falling out with her son, so I offered to be the "go between" for them to help start to repair their relationship.  As I used to be a Front Line Crisis Worker, this was right up my alley.  It only requires me to pass on messages from one to the other through me on e-mail, but it has been so rewarding already.  Finally, I had a sense of purpose again!

Then, just to fill up my "purpose agenda" even more, I have been answering enormous amounts of posts on Disaboom! LOL  It seems I am not only here for my own support, but to pass that onto others, and with anywhere from 20 - 30 posts in my e-mail every day, I have been pretty busy!  I now look forward to getting up and checking my messages every day, and offering guidance, support, and encouragement has been filling my heart with warm fuzzies that I am useful and I am needed again.  I want to thank everyone who has been sending me messages and who have answered mine.  It is such a gift in my life to have contact with so many people again.  I live alone and was terribly isolated this winter, which was adding to my depression so much.  I even have a few on e-mail now that I can send e-cards and forwarded funnies to.  My whole little world has opened up again thanks to this wonderful site and the amazing people here.  Bless you all!