my life or lack of

Some people have asked me why don't I write about myself instead of just posting jokes...I am a very shy person and I don't let people see the real me, but I will try....My name is Kelli, I'm 45 and I know my situation isn't unique, but it sure feels that way to me. I've been in a wheelchair since I was eleven, so I had to "grow up" at a young age. While all my friends were out having fun I was at home listening to people talk about their job or money Something that a eleven year old shouldn''t have to deal with. When I finally went back to school,  everyone was not sure what to do or say I never felt like I fit in   

After I finished High School, I tried college, but I couldn't manage because the campus was so big and my classes were on opposite ends, back then you didn't see a lot of wheelchairs, I wasn't aware of any govt. programs to help me get a electric chair, so I toughed it out three months and came back home

After six months of doing nothing, I went to a trade school for the disabled where I met my husband/best friend. We had alot of things in common, we both needed someone and we wanted to be independant. We were married later that year and moved out on our own  He took me everywhere there was nothing we couldn't do together.

He died two years ago, and now I'm lost I have moved back in with my parents They are both elderly and not in good health   I have a older sister that comes by when she can, but she is married and has her own life I do not have any close friends that I can go do things with and I don't drive, so I usually stay in my room on this computer I do have a scooter that I ride around the block occasionally, but I usually stay inside playing games on this computer or watching tv, my friday nights is just me and netflix, my life or lack of is rather boring  I am a very emotional person, I cry at the drop of a hat   I do not take things with a "grain of salt" My mom says I make more out of what is said, but I think I see things clearer than "normal" people 

I stared at this blog for weeks debating whether to post it, it seems rather depressing to me