Quandry

The 2008 Old Arizona production of "THE BROKEN BRAIN SUMMIT" has now been put to bed and with a great momentum for a call to do the road show.  As a man who had never thought I'd ever do something  in professional theater, I was and still am suprised at the critical praise for my work as Dr. Dendrite and the work of my fellow actors in the company.  But I feel a disquiet about it all..

  What do you say to people about Tramatic Brain Injury when you already have a hard time describing the ways that a person feels when it seems like I used to know stuff and now can't recall.  I sometimes feel as if I am the janitor character in "Flowers for Algernon".  I've done back to full-time work three times and failed to meet job expectations, and told not to come back until I was "fixed". 

So now I'm liking where I am at with Interact Center with some caveats.  I don't "Look" disabled and sometimes the visual and performing arts staff get a bit miffed that visitors may differ to me for information rather than them.  I feel as if the other program artist/actors treat me as "too healthy"(their words) and the staff treat me as if I should be somewhere else or working with the administration..

On my really good days I don't even need the cane to walk.  On the bad days, well...let's just say those are the days I am grudgingly grateful for Depends.