About Me

I am a 47 yr old female who has lived in NH for almost 7 yrs. I am originally from Malden,MA. I am married with a 22 yr old son. I always worked (in accounting), bowled, and was very active and social, up until 8 yrs ago when my story really begins. My story is a strange one. It started with an ear infection then went to a kidney stone attack. From there I was diagnosed with a severe case of Fibromyalgia and Degenerative Disc disease which involves 4 discs as of my last MRI 4 yrs ago. I also have a herniated disc (S1) which is the worst pain I have felt in my life. I am now at the point where I cannot walk any further than my bed to the bathroom. I never thought I would ever use a wheelchair without having a spinal injury from an accident. I am lucky to have a husband who is willing to do the things I cannot (which is a lot) as well as do things for me that I never thought I would need help with. My son is also the best son anyone could ask for. He will not leave alone if dad isn't home. He always puts me before himself. He is incredible. He has been this way since he was 7 yrs old and I went through a divorce with his dad. He worried more about me than himself. We eventually got back together and decided to get remarried 3 months before I got ill. He has stood by me since without any complaints. He says it is his job as my husband to be here for me through good and bad.Who knew??? I have adjusted to the fact that I need help but will never accept the fact that I am not able to do a lot of things. I try to do them and then realize I can't and have to stop. It kills me to have to admit I need help. How embarassing it is to have to call your son for help to get off the toilet. I never thought I would have to do that but it happened more than once. I could go on and on but I am sure you all know how that feels amongst other things. Sometimes life really sucks but we must go on. Many times I have thought about giving up then I think about my son and my mom (who already lost a son unexpectedly at the age of 43) and could never do that to them. My mom has always said to me that husbands can come and go but blood family will never move on like a husband would. Well I am going to stop here and move on. I will update in my blogs.