About Me

I really dont know where to start...Its kind a like ,if it didnt happen to you, you wouldnt believe it kind of life I have lead. Divorced twice, been burnt vert badly, well done one could say. Both cheated on me, one had an abortion out of wed lock, wife #2 cheated w/ a guy I introduced her to and she got pregnat. I really cant spell, I think it is a man thing. I worked in law enforcement for 4 1/2 years. I got done because that is when all my troubles began in early spring of '03. My 11 year old daughter has endored many difficulties to say the least. My 1st wife uses our daughter as a tool to hurt me. I have been in the courts to try to resolve this issue. The disability I have is depression, aniexity disorder, P.T.S.D. & sleeping disorders. I never had any problems till I lost my family & the maner it was done. My family was my life, literaly. I couldn't work for almost 3 years, then I found out about S.S.D.I. through my social worker. She helped me w/ the paper work & prepared me that it will most likely be denied, 99% or something like that get denied. Well mine didn't. I strugle with work every day, I do what i can. It is part time. I have been hospitalized 5 times in the past. I am loney, I feel like no one understands, therefor I do not talk to my family, ie--mom,dad,brother. I have one friend that I will open up to some. I miss the joys in life that a family brings. My daughter is the true defination of a Daddys Girl. I am proud to be her dad. The mother of our child uses her/my depression against me. The "X" knows how to bring me down. I am still her. I am not proud of this, but I want to be totally open, I have supervised visits w/ my child, w/ a theropist. I have just filed an 8 page affidated w/ the court & am now waitng for the court date. My daughter wants to live w/ me & her mom knows this & is using her manipulation skills to make sure that doesn't happen. All I want is to be a dad again and to be happy and hopefully the love-bug will bite me, HARD so I don't let the love-bug fly away and miss my chance...